17th Mar, 2010

A brief farewell

a patchwork quilt of clouds to the west

a patchwork quilt of clouds to the west

We remain frozen, the mountain and I
She softens ever so slightly
One can not resist the sun
I smell the moist bark on the spruce where the snow has melted away

Flowing waters stir me
Running waters awaken me

It is time for me to sign off for a while here, my friends.
Though I imagine what matters more to you is the mountain,
What matters most to me is my boys, our life, our future, our dreams.
I have some work to do there, of little interest to you, and yet it means the world to me.
We have a brave new life to step out into, together. We have built the door, now I suppose we must build the road before us. Or at least the net before we leap.

And so I take a brief leave of absence and will use this time to prepare our future and complete the past – which includes finishing up the book now in the final proofing stages.

I will share with you again shortly, and I look forward to that day. Perhaps when something changes – the weather, our plans, our future, me. I find it too difficult right now to remain positive and inspiring for you. What I feel is scared for me. You are not here for the darkness, but rather the light. And I am not here to whine.

I will resume in brighter days. I will return when the waters awaken me.

Namaste.

Responses

Through your amazing words you have opened your heart and allowed us to share your life, your joys, your sorrows ….. and through your journey, to better understand ours. You have remained a sanctuary of place and of heart. Always remember that there are lots of hearts out here traveling alongside you and your boys. Know too, that wherever this journey takes you all you have to do is plug in a computer and shout – there are lots resting spots along the way ready to offer sanctuary to you. Thank you

May the Force be with you and your boys.

Gin,

I think you would be surprised at your readers, your friends, who feel you mean more than the mountain. Don’t ever forget that. Even though the mountain intrigues us and enhances our dreams, it is you and your family that we have grown to care about.

I do understand wanting a break from the writing or for me it would be the computer. It does take away a lot of our precious time that we will never get back.

I am so proud to hear you are in the final processes of the book! Please let me know when and where I can purchase it. I am curious to see what path it has taken.

Love and Hugs,

Karen and All The Boys

Our thoughts and prayers are with you where ever you go. You might be surprised how many people honestly care about you and your family.The mountain can be taken from us but friendship cannot. I am so happy our lives crossed paths as you have enriched us in many ways. We will be anxious to hear what the future holds.

Gin,

I am not one for expressive words or poetry, such as the gifts that you have. But, know that we care, are here, and want the very best for you and your family. We will miss you, not the mountain.

God Speed on your personal and geographic jounrny. Looking forward to your presence in our lives again in the future.

You know we care.

Al

We all love your beautiful words and your beautiful pictures, but we come here to read about you. We do very much care about you and what is happening to you. It’s not the mountain. Yes, many of us may miss being in the mountains in the winter time, and you give us a vivid, glorious view, but we come here because of you. We are concerned about where you’re going, what you’re going to do, is Forrest going to be okay with it all. But then we know that he will be okay because he has a great mom. We’re scared for you. We’re excited about your having a book published. We’ll be first in line to buy it. You don’t have to be positive and cheery to inspire us. You just inspire us period. We hope you won’t be absent for too long. Whatever you do is of interest to us. Believe that.

Thanks for your writing and pictures. I know your experience has prepared you to do well in whatever you choose. You have the strength to succeed.

you. gin, you. lump in throat. you.

you bring the mountain to life and yet you show us the dignity and grace (from the ups to the downs and back again) of humanity.

so excited to hear you’re finishing up the book. wow. go woman, go…

cheering you on in my heart and wow, will miss you!!!

big hugs…

I was unfamiliar with the word “namaste’ at the end of your post, so I Googled it, and chose the meaning that meant the most to me. So I say “namaste” in return to you: “All that is best and highest in me greets/salutes all that is best and highest in you.”

I have thoroughly enjyed and looked forward to your writings every day. Thank you for opening up your world on the mountain. May God be with you and the boys. Best wishes. Till we meet again.

Echoing the sentiments of many, it’s not so much the mountain anymore, but you and your family we return for.

Strength – you have it. Abundantly. You know this, but maybe it is slumbering with the mountain. Your spot is much more difficult for you than I can imagine. But stoke that fire inside you and keep putting one foot in front of the other, literally, figuratively.

Although unseen, you have a circle of care and concern around you in the form of this community you have created. I would imagine I can speak for several in saying that we worry about you not only while reading here, but in our everyday lives. Soak up the time with your family, they will catch you if you fall. Know also, that we are all here when you choose to return.

Big hugs…

Thank you for sharing your life and views with us. Your kind words help when we need the help and we are all here for you, any time you need us.
I will think of you every time I go to Lake City.
All of our love to you and yours.

Hi Gin,
Hope all is going well with you and yours at this bend in the road. Not a day goes by that we don’t think about ya’ll and what the hell is going on. We will be waiting upon your return to share with us the outcome. Hope Tres had or is having a safe birth. Can’t wait for the book to come out…I’ll definitely be in line for a first edition.
Keeping the faith for you, Bob, and Forrest.
Love to all from Arley and Lisa

I will miss you and your writings . Life must go on . Thank you for your help in my time of need . I will be watching for your return .The mountain is special but you and your family are very much more
Your Friend Don

Oh gosh. I step away for a few weeks and come back to this sad post. I hope things turn out for the best with you. You are a beautiful and inspiring writer, and especially so for us young homesteader ranching horse loving wannabes. Everything shakes itself out. Have faith and step strong.

please come back soon. I wish you all the best.

I was saddened by your last post. Pat and I and our family wish you and your boys the very best. You have been such wonderful neighbors for all these many years.

I keep looking at your site and really wish you were still posting. I hope you are well and at peace. You don’t realize how your writings have helped so many people. You could always find beauty in a twig, a rock and a soft cloud.

here’s to melting and reclaiming the eternal you…miss you, woman. hugely…

Has anyone heard from Gin?

You are missed. I know our paths crossed for a reason. Your healing words were so comforting in such a dark hour for me. I wish you comfort and all of the joy you can embrace every single moment. Safe travels to you. Somehow I know we will meet again.
-Tracy

Missing you.

Just thought I’d pop in to say hi and tell you that you are still loved and missed. Hope all is well.

well dear. well, dear. well. dear. i tell you what. i miss you. it’s october already and i’m feeling the weeks of not having your wisdom and beauty gracing me. you are loved. peace…

I agree! You are loved! It would be wonderful to read your wisdom and beauty once again.

I was thinking about you recently as well and wondering how you’re doing. I miss you terribly. Blessings.

And I, you, you all, so real, so dear to me, though some are distant names I have learned from far away over time. But names with stories behind them, and now I feel I know you, and I care. Please know. I care. More than my words can express.

Has it been so long? I am sorry.

This is not about me, though foolishly and selfishly at times I tell myself it is, and I feel exposed and vulnerable and wonder what I could possibly say and do that matters. We all want to matter, I suppose, don’t we? But the more importance we put on our own value, the more we begin to see how little worth we actually hold. I am just one. But one of many. Many good persons. And then we begin to find meaning and depth.

Depth. The depths are a dark place, aren’t they? Lonely and frustrating and blinding to the beauty around us. Such a selfish place to be. Self absorption, we drown in our home-made hells.

Ah, but this is not about me, and there is great comfort in that. It’s about us, a community, friends, a distant family we choose to create. A balance and completeness. But it is not me, it is us, and it is the mountain, a lifestyle, an appreciation for the simple beauty around us that somehow is fiercely precious within our heart and soul and each living cell. And those things I can share.

I will return soon with words, though I can not claim wisdom, you know as well as me, only a hand that shares the view before me. If there is any wisdom to be had, it is in the rocks, the river, the trees, the mountains before me. There is little found inside me. What a shadowy place that can be and has been. It is time to return to the light.

Think I’ll take the boys and pup and climb a mountain today, a nameless peak in plain view from our home, rise high above tree line, look down at our world and try to put this mess that life seems like at times into perspective.

Yea! We’re so glad to hear from you Gin. We always love to hear what you have to say and what you’re doing. We want you to be happy!

Let us know what you find up on that peak! Good to read you on the blog again.

I am glad to see you there, Gin, and hope to read more of your musings soon. These bring me great joy.
Signed,
one more from far away

Thank you for sharing a new post Gin! I know all your friends and neighbors will be glad to hear from you once again!

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