30th Mar, 2011

end of march

Another storm comes

     And goes

          And leaves

               A dusting on the front porch

Freshens the still white pasture

That was brown from the sands in the spring winds

Laces the spruce tree with an antique patina as if

Once again I was looking at an old faded photo

On my grandma’s knick-knack shelf

Above her big farmhouse porcelain sink

Somewhere there in suburbia with the little lawn

And front steps where we’d wait for mailman and milk truck.

 

 

Yesterday I looked in the mirror

      Something I’m not keen on doing

          And saw

               The silver frosting as if from that snow

I lifted my hand to brush it away

My hand empty but for wrinkles so plentiful on the backside

And I wonder from where these came

On hands still so strong and able and firm

Hands which provide fare and comfort in a harsh world

     Creased with lines

          Deep with stories

How can I be aging when I have yet to grow up?

Responses

Yes, I find myself looking in the mirror less and less these days. As for growing up, though, I hope I never do! Oh, I know we need to mature and learn to deal with life but I always want to be that young person inside!

Yeah, what’s up with the wrinkles and growing up? Glad to see you writing again, Gin. You’re awesome!!!

Wow, Gin, Didn’t know you were blogging again and so love what you write. Your line “how can I be aging when I have yet to grow up?” really hit me, for that’s where I am, too–and 20 years or so older. It’s that sense of not being there yet, of not being “finished”, that in fact keeps us searching, learning, and young. You have maturity way beyond your years because you are willing to look inside and face the hurts and see the changes. Most in their crazy/business don’t take time to do that and one day, to their amazement, DO wake up old.

Love you, Nieceling…

well said, jean!
about taking the time to look and feel.
may we never be “finished” so we always experience, learn, grow, and try.
never be closed or know it all.
allowing us the fullest of lives.

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